Rebecca, my first thoughts are look at yourself differently and ask , how can I win at life. Believe, embrace and understand you can be and do anything you want to do. Your fate is 100% in your hands. Dedicate yourself to
working hard towards your goals. Seek out a Mentor. Write down your goals and review them every week. Start researching what steps you need to take to work towards reaching your goals. Research via the Internet, Library, professionals you may know, volunteer opportunities. Surround yourself with people who share the same or similar goals. Look at each step you accomplish towards your goal as a success. You will find a large part of success is having a positive attitude, being the best at anything and everything you do. As an African American woman I can agree you will face some challenges simply because you are who you are. You must not allow that to block your success or opportunities. The most perfect person no matter what race or nationality will face challenges in life. It is your attitude that will help you overcome those challenges and move forward. College is quite costly, but is affordable. Consider attending a local Community College first . You can then transfer to a 4 year college. New York has outstanding CUNY and SUNY schools.
I have included some educational and informational links below for you to review. I wish you much success!
https://bcwnetwork.com/ ( Black Career Women's Network)