Daniella, you ask some very tough questions but it is good to see that you are not afraid to ask for advice. The medical field is a tough one and a person must have a true desire and the dedication to be successful. You lay two paths on the table for discussion and you appear to be dissecting each one (sorry for the medical analogy). First, you want financial security, or at least your family wants that for you. You must ask yourself if this is truly one of your desires or is it something that is being assumed for you? Financial security comes in many forms. Just enough to pay the bills but happy doing your job, or having a lot of money so you don't have to worry about it. What is important to you? My daughter went into private practice as a GP and struggles each month to make the bills because she chose to serve the less fortunate and those with little to no insurance. She ends up not collecting on a lot of what she does, but she loves her job because she feels she is helping others and gets satisfaction from doing it. Is your passion truly in medicine or in writing? If it is in writing, there are areas of the medical industry that need good writers/editors. I have relatives that make a good living writing although they like to stay home instead of travel. I went to High School with a person who made a very successful career writing for a petroleum company and travels all over the world. It should not be pre-assumed that a writing career cannot be successful. There are many options out there so find the one that fits you. Keep asking the questions and good luck!